Montag, Februar 15, 2010

Feburary, the Finishing Month

I am now, for the first time in my life, officially unemployed. ;)

Somehow I managed to get a sponsored course which will start next week. Since autumn I've done a 1-weekend-a-month-course to become a trainer in adult education, and my couselor got me this fulltime-ten-weeks course on becoming a trainer for teaching immigrants reading, writing and speaking skills. I'm really happy about this - it forms a beautiful synergy with the other course, it checks with my desire to help people and my love for language, it will bring me into contact with other cultures, especially those easily neglected (I'm guessing Eastern Europe etc).

Still, I'm anxious about the future. I've never been one of those people with one clear goal/obsession/path in life, and several wishes, ideas, desires are warring to be heard. I definitely worry too much. ;) I guess it's all nice and easy, I just can't quite see it yet.

Why the title of this post?
Well, since I am now unemployed (with still enough to do though ;)), I decided I'd finished a few long-postponed projects. Clearing out my wardrobe. Mending some clothes. Putting my finances in order. Getting rid of loads of stuff. Finishing some knitting projects (I even joined a Ravelympics Team for exactly that purpose - Team WIP :D). Stuff like that.

So far, it feels quite nice.
I finished a scarf that was supposed to be m boyfriend's present for Christmas. Christmas 2008. Geez. Though I must admit it went through a couple of transformations (initially it should have been a hat).
I cleaned up one of my cupboards.
I wrote some important administrational emails, all to do with money stuff.
I am currently registering loads of books I'll never ever read (I have to remind me of that time and time again - I will not ever be able to read everything, not even just those things that appeal to me) for Bookcrossing. I ripped them off my shelves during one of those later night "I've got too much stuff! Can't breathe!" - crises. Not to worry, I am not throwing out books I spent hundreds of euros on. Most of them are donations to BC (lots from my boyfriend this time!), another load I bought for 1 euro each.
I got started on my wardrobe and it is already looking so much better.

After tomorrow, fasting time traditionally begins, and I'm thinking about what 'll give up until Easter time. Since I feel that fasting is not a religious thing, but a natural preparation for the new cycle of life beginning in spring, I feel that this year I should honour this special time in some way. The above (getting rid of stuff and finishing unfinished stuff) is part of this honouring.